Baby MaMa Motivation

This morning I had a whole wheat cinnamon raisin English muffin with a few sprays of I Cant Believe Its Not Butter. I also ate three of the frozen WalMart brand home style meatballs. I had a diet coke to drink. I took my blood pressure medicine, thyroid medicine, half of a phentermine 37.5 mg, and a green tea supplement. I am also using an app on my android phone called calorie counter. My breakfast was approximately 270 calories. This app is telling me I should eat 2400 calories. Wow, that seems like a lot. I guess we will see. Taking the supplements is making me feel a little odd. Not shakey just different. I sort of feel a little repulsed by food right now. I will see how long the feeling lasts. At work I usually eat A LOT out of boredom. I am also an emotional eater so I need to have something to help me cope with this. I brought a bag of popcorn incase I have the impulse to snack on something.

I have always been one of those gals who battles the bulge. Even as a child I can remember always worrying about my weight. I have been on so many diets I can't even count. I have lost the same 60 pounds at least three times in my life. I have found that when I finally get to my goal weight I think I can eat whatever I want and before I know it I am back at 200 + pounds. Now that I am older ( the dirty 30 ) I have made a decision to change my lifestyle. I have high blood pressure, hypothyroid, and recently had my gall bladder removed. I do not want to die of heart disease!! I do not want to feel unhappy in my own skin!! I do not want to feel like crap everyday!! I DO NOT want to set a bad example for my children!! So here goes!! I am going to blog my journey. I will tell you all exactly what I am doing. I am going to be taking supplements so if you do not agree with using them please do not bash me. This is MY blog and MY journey. I think it would be more unhealthy for me to stay at 262 pounds than it is for me to take some appetite suppressants to get in a healthier physical and emotional state. I hope I am able to inspire others and I hope you read this to keep me accountable. Oh, by the way..... I am terrible at grammar and punctuation so just read my blog, don't analyze it. :) Let the journey begin!!

OMG!!! I have been off work for two weeks and now that I am back I am soooooo over it!! Getting up in the morning with three kids is not fun. I know some people think "oh you should be thankful for another day" yea I am thankful but not loving it. Remember ladies, my husband works offshore and is gone for 14 days every single month!! I am a single mom half the time. It is chaos and I am exhausted. I need to be a stay at home mom but cant afford to be one. How do single moms do it? How can I make my energy last all day?? How can I manage a home, kids, work, and marriage when all I want to do is sleep!! Ugh HELP!!

Last night while at Wal-Mart I saw they have prepared pasta. All you have to do it put it in the oven. I was skeptical as to how good it would be but I thought it was worth a try. I have three very picky little mouths to feed so I do not like to spend a lot of time preparing meals that will never get eaten. The dish only took about 30 minutes to cook as the directions said. It was a penne pasta with an alfredo sauce, diced tomatoes, and grilled chicken strips. To my surprise it was wonderful. The sauce was very flavorful and the pasta was perfectly tender. I would have rathered fresh chicken in it but the kids liked it. It was so tastey the kids didn't even notice the diced tomatoes. I will be purchasing this again and again. You can find this dish near the deli section at your local Wal-Mart. I hope my opinion on this is true to your taste buds. (This is my own opinion, I was not compensated in any way for this review.)

Today started off pretty crazy. My one year old woke up in a great mood but did not want her hair brushed! My four year old did not want to get out of bed. My six year old was no longer my sweet little boy, he was Ben 10. Ben 10 does not like to get dressed for school. I also got to clean up the cupcake crumbs scattered all over my living room floor. I'm guessing there was a party last night I was not invited to. So we all were out the door by 7 am. As soon as I dropped the little ones off I noticed my gas light was on. GREAT!! I had to pump gas as I told my six year old that candy is not a good breakfast. I drove my 45 minute daily drive to work and made it right on time. Then I realized I left my darn diet coke on top of the truck when I was pumping gas. What a morning!!