Baby MaMa Motivation

This morning I had a whole wheat cinnamon raisin English muffin with a few sprays of I Cant Believe Its Not Butter. I also ate three of the frozen WalMart brand home style meatballs. I had a diet coke to drink. I took my blood pressure medicine, thyroid medicine, half of a phentermine 37.5 mg, and a green tea supplement. I am also using an app on my android phone called calorie counter. My breakfast was approximately 270 calories. This app is telling me I should eat 2400 calories. Wow, that seems like a lot. I guess we will see. Taking the supplements is making me feel a little odd. Not shakey just different. I sort of feel a little repulsed by food right now. I will see how long the feeling lasts. At work I usually eat A LOT out of boredom. I am also an emotional eater so I need to have something to help me cope with this. I brought a bag of popcorn incase I have the impulse to snack on something.

I have always been one of those gals who battles the bulge. Even as a child I can remember always worrying about my weight. I have been on so many diets I can't even count. I have lost the same 60 pounds at least three times in my life. I have found that when I finally get to my goal weight I think I can eat whatever I want and before I know it I am back at 200 + pounds. Now that I am older ( the dirty 30 ) I have made a decision to change my lifestyle. I have high blood pressure, hypothyroid, and recently had my gall bladder removed. I do not want to die of heart disease!! I do not want to feel unhappy in my own skin!! I do not want to feel like crap everyday!! I DO NOT want to set a bad example for my children!! So here goes!! I am going to blog my journey. I will tell you all exactly what I am doing. I am going to be taking supplements so if you do not agree with using them please do not bash me. This is MY blog and MY journey. I think it would be more unhealthy for me to stay at 262 pounds than it is for me to take some appetite suppressants to get in a healthier physical and emotional state. I hope I am able to inspire others and I hope you read this to keep me accountable. Oh, by the way..... I am terrible at grammar and punctuation so just read my blog, don't analyze it. :) Let the journey begin!!

OMG!!! I have been off work for two weeks and now that I am back I am soooooo over it!! Getting up in the morning with three kids is not fun. I know some people think "oh you should be thankful for another day" yea I am thankful but not loving it. Remember ladies, my husband works offshore and is gone for 14 days every single month!! I am a single mom half the time. It is chaos and I am exhausted. I need to be a stay at home mom but cant afford to be one. How do single moms do it? How can I make my energy last all day?? How can I manage a home, kids, work, and marriage when all I want to do is sleep!! Ugh HELP!!